Chasing a dream

Hello blogging world, I have returned! Relaxed and charred to a crisp. Some say Mexico's sun is harsh, to them I say my skin is proof!

Although this vacation did see it's fair share of excursions it was also met with quite a bit of relaxation as well. Sitting beach side gives you not only a lot of time to finish a beach read (Harry Potter: Chamber of Secerts = done) it also gives you time to think. I got to thinking about dreams, dreams in the ideals/aspiration sense. In a sense we are always chasing them, chasing the ideal. Where does these ideals, theses aspiration come from? But most importantly how do you chase them?

I find myself struggling with the "how" part. How in the sense of, which one do I chase first. Which one should be first on the metaphorical list of life. Or do I chase them all at the same time? On one hand I have this uncontrollable desire to travel this world and let my feet wander on as much of this world's soil as possible. Then the other hand I have this deeply rooted passion to help others and volunteer either medically or non-medically. Then on the other hand ( I have many hands, I'm like Ganesh) I have this desire to buy property and assert my "grown up" side of life. It's a conundrum I tell you. I can say though that the wandering the world bit is proving gainful so far!

I have this fear though, this fear that when life is nearly at it's sunset will it all be enough?

Look at me trying to plan out life, as if life can be planned out and made into neat lists. The type A in me I guess. I have to adopt the bungie jumping method. Dive head first into the great abyss and pray to God that my safety cord doesn't break

Ideally yours,
N